Let Love In

"Feel The Silence"

You lie awake at night
With blue eyes that never cry
All you remember now
Is what you feel

The truth remains
In midnight conversations
I asked for this moment
But you turned away

Sad like a lonely child
Broken the day you're born
I held the light to you
But I was so vain

And you remain
A promise unfulfilled
I ask you for more
But you push me away

And if we feel the silence
Holding this all inside
Everything means more now than
Words could explain

And if we feel the silence
Holding this all inside us
Looking for something more to say
I don't know where I'm going
Only know where I been
But you move through my soul like a hurricane wind
We've been so lost for so long
I don't know how to get back again
And we're drowning in the water
That flows under this bridge
When you're fighting the current
You forget how to live
And I wanted to reach you but I don't know where to begin
And you remain
A promise unfulfilled until today

And if we feel the silence
Holding this all inside
Everything means more now than
Words could explain
And if we feel the silence
Leaving this all behind us
When it's gone what will you say

How do we hold on
How do we hold on
How do we hold on
How do we hold on
How do we hold on

You lie awake at night
With blue eyes that never cry

It's a Bug's Life

Me: OMG
Me: bug dropped right on my keyborad
Me: I thjink it's dead
BabyHuey: haha
Me: com,e up hre
Me: yeah its dead
Me: it's not moving
Me: come get it
Me: its on the F1 button
Me: why did it die and just fall
Me: no it's moving
Me: omg
Me: trying to move
Me: help me
BabyHuey: lol
Me: it's dyinmg
Me: on my keyboard
BabyHuey: awwww
Me: please
Me: help me
Me: pleease
Me: JOHN
Me: it fell off the f1
Me: come get it
Me: please

Visualize this people, me typing using a purple gel pen so I didn't accidentally touch the bug, my chair moved far enough away from my desk where I had to stretch my arm out to tap the keys. The bug wasn't moving at first, so I thought he was dead but when he finally started to crawl off the keyboard I freaked.

My hero took his time coming up to rescue me so I had to take drastic measures, I tried getting the bug into an empty Oreo icecream carton but it ended up falling on the floor. We never found him, I'll be traumatized all night. Rae got a good laugh though...

Rae: John didn't come up and get it?
Me: he came up but he took too long and the fucker started to try to get away
Me: I think he was disorientated at first cause he dropped
Me: how the heck did it just drop from the ceiling like that
Me: with a plop
Me: he hit the keyboard hard
Me: I've never seen a bug fall like that
Rae: <-- dying *fall down laughing smiley*
Me: imagine if he had fallen on my head
Me: you would have laughed your ass off if you had seen me with that damn oreo icecram carton and trying to get the fucker
Me: I was scared shit
Me: now I'm looking on my clothes and chair and my feet tickle
Me: OMG
Me: fucking ugly ass bug too
Me: have you ever seen a crawling bug just fall from the ceiling?
Me: wtf is that about...was he smoking something?
Me: a stoned bug
Rae: a stoned bug *fall down laughing smiley*
Me: no, seriously...why would it fall like that?
Rae: I don't know
Rae: *fall down laughing smiley*
Me: lol, I'm laughing cause you're laughing at me
Rae: oh you have no idea...
Rae: I'm crying from laughing so much *laughing smiley*
Me: hehehe
Me: I still feel lil antennae on my body
Me: OMG
Me: I need to find that fucker

....and sure as shit after publishing this post the lil bugfucker fell on my head. Plop! I flicked him onto the desk and finally got his ass into that damn icecream carton and flushed him down the toilet as my hero slept not ten feet from my desk where I was screaming.

I can now finally sleep in peace.

My Baby Huey

I love him so.

The Pretenders

So, if you're mad get mad,
don't hold it all inside,
Come on and talk to me now.
And hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
But I'm alot like you.
When you're standing at the crossroads,
don't know which path to choose,
Let me come along,
cause even if your wrong
I'll stand by you,
I'll stand by you,
won't let nobody hurt you,
I'll stand by you.

I'm Forever Yours....

I'm not good at all when it comes to flying, I broke out in hives on the drive to the airport (Monette knows how much I love her now :p ) but once I got on the plane I was ok....until it had to return to the gate for repairs. Did I panic you ask, it scared the living CHIT outta me. I called John and asked him to make sure my life insurance was paid up. I arrived late but very grateful to be in one piece.

The wedding was beautiful, everything was perfect. Monette looked amazing and Chris was all smiles and full of energy all night. Chris' parents were adorable, I fell in love with them and wanted to bring them home with me.

I didn't get to bring them but I did get to bring home one of the pretty centerpieces. Monette's sister won the one from our table and was so sweet she gave it me, she made my night. I danced the whole night away...after my lil incident in the washroom. For those interested in that whole story just ask. It really is worth hearing about ;).

The next day we had an awesome brunch at the hotel with the bride and groom and their immediate family. I felt so blessed being at the wedding but even more special for being a part of such an intimate moment in their lives. We spent all day Sunday in Niagra Falls and then had a picnic in the park. It turned out to be a very nice day. Everyone was able to relax and just enjoy the purdyness. The next morning Ry made me a wonderful breakfast and I got ready for my return trip home. This time without any trouble, beside a short delay which wasn't a big deal. I got to sit in first class and had a neighbor who was great company the whole flight.

FAITHFULLY

Recap

I know I haven't posted in some time but I've actually had things to write about. I've got DSL back up but it's buggy. It's a long post so here goes...

The weekend before last we went to Galena Territory to see a piece of land John's mom owns. It is a beautiful place. We drove around and just took in all the fresh air, sat by a double waterfall and enjoyed the peacefullness. While we were there we rented a pantoon boat so we could fish in the marina and I was captain! (We won't mention how I almost hit a bunch of canoers *giggles*) We found a quiet cove and saw a herron. It took awhile getting started, John had to bait all the hooks because no one would touch the worms and we kept losing our bait. I was determined to catch a fish and I did...with a Barbie fishing pole! I lost my voice from all the screaming and jumping around I did as I reeled it in, the fact that no one else caught anything probably had something to do with that ;). I scared all the fish away and am sure that all the people on the lake that day must have thought I was retarded. I was giddy all day long because it was the first time I had ever been fishing too. John's mom cooked it and ate it, I should have probably had it stuffed and mounted.

We took the kids horse back riding and they loved it. There was a horse named Red that was so friendly, he had such a personality. Can you believe he flirted with me the whole time I was there. He kept putting his nose in my cleavage and nuzzling my face and neck. It was adorable. I even asked him if he was flirting with me and he stuck out his tongue. I swear that horse was a man reincarnated.

On the drive back home we stopped by my uncle's house because he was about an hour or so away from where we were. We don't get to visit very often because they are about two hours from where I live. My aunt made us dinner and I got to spend some quality time with my cousin who I hadn't seen in so long. He is on dialysis and doesn't go anywhere. We played pool while the kids did karaoke. It was a very nice evening, something we should definitely do more often.

The next morning we will call....

"The day Anna went Ghetto"

My mom and I went to the store and the parking lot was full so people were driving around sorta waiting for cars to pull out. I found a van leaving so I pulled over the the side to let it back up so I could take the spot. The driver in the car behind me wasn't happy that she had to wait and started cursing and screaming at me. I ignored her until finally she pulled around (yeah what a stupid bitch that she sat there and cursed instead of pulling around in the first place) and started yelling through the passenger side window where my mom was sitting. That pissed me off more than anything so as the van finally pulled out I floored it into the spot, got out and threw my keys down and ran over to her car before she was able to leave and started calling her out. I am not a confrontational person, and have never ever done this before in my life but NO ONE disrespects my mom. Well, the bf who was the passenger came out (a lil punk) we exchanged a few words ...they weren't very nice mind ya :p but she never came out. My voice was almost gone to begin with so this situation did not help but I'm thinking after what happened she'll think twice about cursing someone out like she did.

The rest of the week was incident free *snickers*

The Sunday before Memorial day we went to Bernard's house (Johns best friend) for a BBQ and we had a great time there. The food was awesome (you know a fat girl always mentions the food ;) ) Bernard's brother came that evening and I had never met him before but when he walked in I swear to you my eyes must have popped out of my head...sure I tried not to stare but I couldn't help it. I had never actually seen anyone who dressed like a pimp before. You know like right out of a movie with the glittery hat and long clothes. Later that evening while we were sitting at the table he sat down to eat and we got to talking and got to know him. He is a very cool person, just like his brother. Turns out he owns the biggest night club on the South Side (which explains the clothes) and invited us to a 4th of July BBQ get together.

Other than that not much else has been going on, I've been busy running around alot. The kids are patiently waiting for school to let out and have had fun with the end of the year stuff. Wednesday was Field Day, they go to the lake play games and have a picnic, the grass was still wet from it raining the night before but that didn't stop the kids. We were a bit bummed that we had to leave early because it looked like it was going to rain again. They have "Dia Del Nino" (Day of kids) on the 8th so that will make up for it. Rosie lost her first tooth and Josh did the "Bike The Drive" with his dad, I think he rode 30 miles. We had a very nice birthday dinner for my dad and bought him a new bike that he was very happy with.

I'm so excited about my trip to Montreal, I can't wait to get there and spend some time with my friends. It's the first time I'll be traveling alone. I haven't packed yet but I will probably do that an hour before I go to the airport :p.

Hope everyone is doing well and enjoying the nice weather.