Saturday, July 29, 2006

Sold Me

Well here I stand before myself
And I see somethings out of place
You've tasted all my purity
Now there's nothing left to waste
The feeling gets so in my way,
It's getting lost in my delivery
The feeling gets so in my way,
I'm getting lost in your periphery

Then you sold me up the river again
(I don't wanna be alone again)
And you made me start all over again
(I don't wanna be alone again)
You moved me, you soothed me, then you fought me
(I don't wanna be alone again)
And you left me wondering what the hell
What is wrong with me?

I never felt like I had failed
Until the day you came undone
I never felt like I was lost
Until the day you killed me again
The feeling gets so in my way,
It's getting lost in my delivery
The feeling gets so in my way,
I'm getting lost in your periphery

Are you stronger for cutting me open?
Are you stronger for leaving me broken?

A visit with Prada

On thursday we all jumped into the van and drove a lil over an hour to my uncle's house. He got a new pool and the kids were looking forward to swimming in it all week. Even towards the evening when it started to rain a lil bit they wouldn't get out of the pool. Crazy kids! That includes John :P

We thoroughly enjoyed the time we spent there hanging out with my family. We didn't get home until almost 1am. Oh...and the food was excellent. My mom made potato salad and arroz con gandules (spanish rice) and I made baked mosticcioli. My uncle marinated some chicken and made some really good baked beans with bacon in it and what's a BBQ without corn on the cob.

My cousin Eyvette has the cutest lil dog named Prada, she gives high fives for treats and if you blow softly in her face she tries to eat the air, it's so adorable. She's just so friendly and loving you wanna take her home with you. My cousin wouldn't allow that though ;) because we did try.

On long drives like that is when I miss my radio even more than usual, I still haven't gotten one put in since they broke in a stole the last one. It's starting to get to me though, not having my music. Hopefully we can get one in soon. We need to get the a/c recharged too cause man has it been hot the past few days.

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Movie Month

Hollywood Video had a double feature special this month, so for $9.99 you got one free for every one you rent for the entire month. That included games too so Josh had a blast getting xbox 360 games as well. We rented lots of movies, these are the ones I can remember from the last two weeks:

Edison Force
7 mummies
DaVinci Treasure
She's the Man
Cheaper by the dozen 2
Eight Below
Failure to Launch
Running Scared
16 Blocks
The Hills have eyes
Kill Bill 1
Kill Bill 2

After watching those I can honestly say that I still think that the movies they make these days mostly suck.

Sunday, July 23, 2006

Happy Birthday Jamie!!!

I hope you had a wonderful day, wish I could have celebrated with ya.

I love you hon *smooches*

A week of blessings

For starters, my friend Rae finally had her procedure done and is doing good. We are happy to have her back and very grateful that it went well. That means our next vist we'll be able to party all night!

Monette and Chris booked their romantic honeymoon get away in beautiful Niagra Falls and things are moving forward positively for their family.

John and I celebrated our 10 year anniversary. He made reservations at Fogo de Chão and we spent the evening out alone (that in itself is a treat) enjoying eachother's company, the wonderful atmosphere and of course the food :P. I wasn't expecting him to do anything so I was very pleasantly surprised. Not to mention I got a sweet treat decorated with a nice anniversary wish from the restaurant.

The next day I spent 5 hours sewing and working on a diaper cake for my cousin's baby shower centerpiece. It was my first "real" project and with the help of my friend Terri, I was able to pull it off very nicely. My cousin loved it!

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

The Awakening

I don't remember who sent this to me ( I think it was John but I'm sure he doesn't remember where he got it) but it was quite some time ago. I never put it up on my blog because I thought it was way too long but ya know, it's one of those things that is really worth reading....a few times even. This picture he took in Philippines last year, it just seemed to fit ;).

A time comes in your life when you finally get it...when, in the midst of all your fears and insanity, you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out...ENOUGH! Enough fighting and crying and blaming and struggling to hold on.

Then, like a child quieting down after a tantrum, you blink back your tears and begin to look at the world through new eyes.This is your awakening.

You realize it's time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change, or for happiness, safety and security to magically appear over the next horizon.

You realize that in the real world there aren't always fairy tale endings, and that any guarantee of "happily ever after" must begin with you... and in the process a sense of serenity is born ofacceptance.

You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are... and that's OK. They are entitled to their own views and opinions.

You learn the importance of loving and championing yourself... and in the process a sense of new found confidence is born of self-approval.

You stop complaining and blaming other people for the things they did to you - or didn't do for you - and you learn that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected.

You learn that people don't always say what they mean or mean what they say and that not everyone will always be there for you and that everything isn't always about you.

So, you learn to stand on your own and to take care of yourself...and in the process a sense of safety and security is born of self-reliance.

You stop judging and pointing fingers and you begin to accept people as they are and to overlook their shortcomings and human frailties... and in the process a sense of peace and contentment is born of forgiveness.

You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view. You begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you really stand for.

You learn the difference between wanting and needing and you begin to discard the doctrines and values you've outgrown, or should never have bought into to begin with.

You learn that there is power and glory in creating and contributing and you stop maneuvering through life merely as a "consumer" looking for your next fix.

You learn that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the outdated ideals of a by gone era, but the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which you must build a life.

You learn that you don't know everything, it's not your job to save the world and that you can't teach a pig to sing. You learn that the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry and that martyrs get burned at the stake.

Then you learn about love.

You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would have them be.

You learn that alone does not mean lonely.

You stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes. You learn to distinguish between guilt and responsibility and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say NO.

You also stop working so hard at putting your feelings aside, smoothing things over and ignoring your needs. You learn that your body really is your temple. You begin to care for it and treat it with respect.

You begin to eat a balanced diet, drink more water, and take more time to exercise.

You learn that being tired fuels doubt, fear, and uncertainty and so you take more time to rest. And, just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul. So you take more time to laugh and to play.

You learn that, for the most part, you get in life what you believe you deserve, and that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling prophecy.You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for and that wishing for something to happen is different than working toward making it happen.

More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success you need direction, discipline and perseverance. You also learn that no one can do it all alone, and that it's OK to risk asking for help.

You learn the only thing you must truly fear is fear itself. You learn to step right into and through your fears because you know that whatever happens you can handle it and to give in to fear is to give away the right to live life on your own terms.

You learn to fight for your life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending doom.

You learn that life isn't always fair, you don't always get what youthink you deserve and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good people... and you learn not to always take it personally.

You learn that nobody's punishing you and everything isn't always somebody's fault. It's just life happening. You learn to admit when you are wrong and to build bridges instead of walls.

You learn that negative feelings such as anger, envy and resentment must be understood and redirected or they will suffocate the life out of you and poison the universe that surrounds you. You learn to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we take for granted, things that millions of people upon the earth can only dream about: a full refrigerator, clean runningwater, a soft warm bed, a long hot shower.

Then, you begin to take responsibility for yourself by yourself and you make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never, ever settle for less than your heart's desire.

You make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting, and to stay open to every wonderful possibility. You hang a wind chime outside your window so you can listen to the wind.

Finally, with courage in your heart, you take a stand, you take a deep breath, and you begin to design the life you want to live as best you can.

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

Princess Everyday

My Princess turned 7 on Sunday...she had a great time at her birthday BBQ. The night before she was so excited about her birthday that she couldn't sleep. She kept pacing back and forth until she finally fell asleep around 3am. She was the first one up though!

John took her to go pick out her bike while I went and picked up the last things for the party. Almost everyone made it and Rosie had an awesome time. She got rollerblades, a talking Carebear, a karoake mic/speaker set, a cool hoola hoop that changes into a jump rope, a hair detangler comb, lots of pretty summer outfits and money. It's funny how kids these days know the value of money. She jumped up and down when she opened her card and there was a $50 bill.

I'm so happy it turned out so well. She had a great birthday!

Saturday, July 08, 2006


You fell in love with a broken heart
-face in every cloud, makes me laugh out loud-

You fell in love with a broken heart
-shouts to keep it down, wagon draws a crowd-

In love with a broken heart
dont you know
-lifeless testimony-

You fell in love with a broken heart
and it shows
-lifeless testimony-

Thursday, July 06, 2006

I'm gonna let it shine

I hope everyone enjoyed their holiday weekend. I know we all did, even though not everyone was doing the same thing. John, his mom and the kids spent the weekend in Wisconsin Dells while I stayed home and got to relax...the house was still full of people, my uncle and cousin are here from New Mexico and Niko (my friend's son has been here for over a week) but I managed to log in a good amount of online hours and have a lil fun most of the weekend ;).

Josh and Niko went swimming and had a great time playing xbox360 games on a projected screen (a King sized white bed sheet LOL). They had several neighborhood kids here playing and watching. We watched a few movies on that projected screen as well, 16 Blocks which wasn't awful but that guy's voice was so annoying it almost made me walk away a few times and about disturbing. What's truly fecked up is that it is based off true events.

There is a mosquito taunting me...he has been for a few hours now. He must DIE!

Saturday, July 01, 2006


Quickie: Someone who can't be easily ignored will monopolize your time, but you won't mind.

Overview: Finally it becomes clear: This goal or person you were pursuing just isn't right for you. It's time to move on. Beating yourself up is counterproductive, however; thank your lucky stars you found this out when you did!

Pancakes Please!

My friend Mike came into town last week from Texas. It wasn't really a social visit, a good friend of his got shot and had to have surgery while another friend's father passed away so he was flying in for the funeral and such. He was able to spend a few extra days though to visit with the rest of us so I invited him over for dinner on Sunday night.

A day earlier I asked him what he wanted me to make him and he said "I feel like a convict on death row trying to decide my last meal!" He really loves my cooking, so much so that he'll call me and have me walk him through a recipe step by step. So he says "too bad it won't be breakfast or I'd ask for pancakes". He absolutely loves my pancakes...actually alot of people do. ( I think it's because they're always fluffy and buttery and have crispy edges :P ) Anyway, he decided on a Puerto Rican dish...Bistec en salsa (con cebellos y pimientas) y Arroz con gandules, so that's what I made.

I was going to make him pancakes for dessert just to surprise him but he ate so much at dinner he said he didn't want dessert (not knowing what it was of course.) Everyone else was getting strawberry shortcake biscuits filled with whipped cream and lots of fresh strawberries or choclate cake, whichever they chose.

The next few days he spent at the hospital with his friend but he calls me up on wednesday night and says "I can come over in the morning for breakfast before I have to go to the airport ." That's just so cute...

He got his Urs needs to come get hers!!!